Lately I’ve been really happy... like oddly happy. It feels like the puzzle pieces of my life are finally piecing together. Don’t get me wrong, I’m still a hot mess most days, but when I look at my life now...it’s not so bad. I don’t dread waking up or try to rush to the next day or week anymore. Instead I’m allowing myself to live each moment, and I try to truly enjoy each day that I’m blessed with.
This past week in Cali was soooo much fun! I got to spend time with my best friends! My heart felt so incredibly full it’s ridiculous. I got to remember the absolute best parts of living there...the people. The beautiful souls that made up my world when I was so far from home. They will always be my family ♥️ If you would have asked me a year ago how complete I felt I would have probably broke down crying because I didn’t at all. There were so many question marks in my life, the only constant I had was fitness, and while that is a HUGE awesome part... there was so much missing. I feel like I’ve finally learned how to allow myself to be me, to be happy, and to truly not care what anyone has to say about it.
It’s a great feeling waking up loving life everyday... weird? 1000%! But I’m soaking it all in and making the choice to not look back. How did I do it? I just decided one day that I was going to make the best out of it and I have chosen to do that each and every day in 2019. It doesn’t mean some days aren’t hard as hell, because trust me they are...BUT I choose to take what I can learn from them...why it’s happening FOR me instead of too me. Try to remember that there are a million people out there who won’t see tomorrow...be thankful you have today.