WHAT A MOOD 😑😑 Throw in uni exams, grading preparation, keeping the house clean, keeping my babies alive, procuring a constant stream of caffeine and that just about does it. Minus the bit RE maintaining a social life though (honestly, whichever of you adults have time for a social life - please, TEACH ME YOUR WAYS how you fit that shit in! My social interactions are currently limited to a screen and avoiding eye contact in various elevators. On Thursday night, I sat on the floor of my dojo before sparring, all geared up, legs spread and slumped over thinking, "I really don't wanna be here"... The campus library staff had a giggle at me yesterday while dragging my lifeless corpse through the lobby, again hunched over, clutching a monstrous coffee cup, and thinking the exact same thing, "I'm literally way too tired for this". I may or may not have had the zombie-limp going on, who knows. Even this morning, I was supposed to be at the library 35 minutes ago, but I'm still sitting in a cafe square in denial that I need to move my ass. As for the candle, it's not just burning at both ends, there's flames from all angles melting off chunks from every which direction - I'm simultaneously a cavity-ridden shell of a candle stick AND the melted puddle underneath, all at once... Sigh. Not all days are crushing goals, kicking ass and taking names. Some days I swear my motor is running on nothing but pure will and stubbornness to just get shit done, because there's shit to do. I don't even remember the last time I washed my hair, but it definitely wasn't this week... But, the shit I wanna achieve isnt gunna achieve itself. Some days I gotta drag my inner child, kicking and shrieking. Some days suck - today is one them.