Lately I've been feeling really down,
I didn't like anything i created. I didn't like my paste, i didnt like my cones, i didnt feel like doing henna on myself since months, and you have to know I always have some henna design on me usually.
I felt like nothing I do is right. Im sure most of you also felt that way once.
But it got to a point where i started questioning if i should continue doing henna. Henna - which was once my passion! And having a profession where i loved what i do was just a dream come true.
But lately, i havent been doing what i loved. I just lost track, I just produced. I didnt really think about much.
I feel like a machine. Sending orders after orders, drawing on clients after clients. And running from one city to another because of appointments.
My little sister just recently asked me, why i dont just take a break. It feels impossible. I still have so much to do. And i couldnt even start my henna challenges which i wanted to post since over a half year. I wanted to give everyone including me a good opportunity to practise skills. Well, i couldnt.
@mehndikajoeyhenna just told everyone to create something new for her #joeysbiggesthennagiveaway
Which ive been thinking of entering since a week. But i didnt know what to do. I didnt feel ready.
But today i remembered why i started my henna journey. And the reasons behind everything. The roots of it all.
And the old drawings i did once. How it all began.. How i tried to overcome depressions and give my life a little joy and structure. It kind of healed me, yes.
And a little self reflection is just what i needed. So i drew myself. Because i need to take care of myself more.
Dont be so harsh on yourself. Take a break if you need to. Treat yourself 😊
Swipe right to see my old drawing from 2016, which i really felt proud of once and enjoyed doing 😊
(I kind of rushed the portrait because i didnt want to miss the deadline)
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