Every bit of pain and resentment there is under the surface come forth when I am vulnerable. Or in lack of same.
Being a mama let me face my most vulnerable and challenging moments. Being in situations where I apologize for not being present or understanding enough. Feeling overwhelmed. Constantly need to be available, when all I need is space and silence.
Transitioning and adjusting every moment. Face my feelings, because in motherhood they can’t hide, nor can’t I.
A piece of my heart is opening up after meeting you, again. A place where I hadn’t allowed myself to access for many years. The layers are being pulled off.
Even when I thought I have dealt a lot with my feelings, I realise there is more that needs acknowledgement, acceptance, and presence. When I look behind, where I am compelled to look, before I find strength, to proceed on my journey.
Writing in my journal outside in the sun, letting all come to the surface. Clearing space for my inner child, my feelings, my thoughts. Releases true emotions and locked up anger, frustration, and irritation.
May we as mamas all continue to learn to hold ourselves and each other through this journey of motherhood and life.