Need To Be written and created by XHAUSTIN. .
I am constantly feeling like less of a man
Not enough money yet I'm always counting bands
at the age of 23 I'm having to deal with a repo
Still hoping I can pull through and get this to change though.
My family stands behind me and I have no doubt
But I'm tryin hard not to let them know that I'm stressed out
I'm not sitting in these crazy problems all alone
But I'm still trying to solve that shit all on my own
So here I sit in a darkened room pouring out my thoughts
These demons creepin, lurking, just trying to set me off
but the jokes on them, I've paid my dues
I use my music and I write to make my dreams come true.
I tell em all "if I make it, I don't plan to change".
I wont be doin nothin stupid, I wanna keep my days
I'm here to make some bands, not here to pop your "xans"
I've got my master plans to be on stage and meet my fans
There has got to be more to this life that I struggle to keep afloat
I know that shes loving me but I cannot help but feel like a ghost
Transparent, I am 1-ply no one here to discover me
I've been writing for years with no promise of living in luxury
My problems pertain to me and i
Dont expect you to see, why i
decide to make everyone leave
That ain't in my family tree
Its a battle every day but I am trying to win the war
Keeping my head down, keeping my mouth closed, while trying to open some doors
My family stays on my mind, like all of the time and they're something i refuse to ignore
And if i make it up high, I think I might cry, might not feel real anymore.
No doubt I'd be ecstatic, trying to map it
Like "yo what happened"
This shit is magic, feeling like static, just need to trap it. that feeling I'd feel, if I could I have it
But I've got so far to go, yet come so far to date
Still have so much to learn but that shit makes me feel great.
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