On Thursday it was my 28th birthday.
I would have normally made a huge post the day before reflecting on my year of growth of transformation, and sharing my intentions for the year ahead.
But I didn't.
Truth is, I am feeling pretty internal at the moment, but I decided I would share something for myself to look back on in a year's time as well as share where I am at with the people I love.
I spent a lot of my birthday crying and processing everything that is changing and transforming within and around me. There were tears of sadness, but also tears of freedom.
The last 12 months were intensive and at times very painful for me, and I very much feel I am currently in a space of strong integration of all the changes that have taken place.
On one hand I feel more, supported, grounded, peaceful, content and happy than I have ever felt. On the other hand I feel deeply emotional and at times very alone. Pregnancy can feel like an isolating journey at times, and at times it feels like even those closest to you cannot relate to the profound unravelling that is happening within you. I feel parts of myself dying, simultaneously to parts of myself birthing. It is strange and unfamiliar, yet beautiful, deep and truthful. I feel a new power and strength emerging inside of me, and I am present with every part of the process as I meet myself with new depths.
So at the moment, if I don't respond to messages or call you back its because I am allowing myself the space to feel deeply and honestly. I am understanding myself in new ways, and that requires space. So I am loving you from a distance. ❤
This photo captured by my beloved gal pal @demiileeee