Face to face Friday: Dressing Room Edition!👗💜
Left: 2017 @ 280ish lbs & miserable
Right: 2019 @ 202 lbs & HAPPY
I’ve hated shopping for clothes my ENTIRE life. Even as a child I was overweight and I have so many memories of leaving the store in tears. Shopping was traumatic and it would remind me of how fat, ugly and different I was (or so I thought) every single time. Trying on clothes made me feel so bad about myself and just highlighted all my flaws. Even well into adulthood, this feeling has never gone away... until now.
Last night I went shopping at Tj Maxx, a store I’ve always loved but could never fit into their clothes. I picked out a cart full of outfits to try on (all in a size L mind you!!), carried them into the fitting room and tried on 16 pieces. 16! I’ve never had that many options before in one fitting room. Haha. But besides that, I genuinely loved trying on those outfits. I was feeling myself and I was in love with the way I felt in my own skin. I felt amazing and you can see it all over my face. I felt confident, sexy, powerful, flirty, comfortable and beautiful - all words I would never use to describe myself. Looking at the other photo of me, I can see the sadness in my eyes and it just breaks my heart but makes me appreciate this moment a 1000x more. Oh, and the craziest part of shopping was, half the clothes i tried on didn’t fit and I didn’t even care!! I hung them back up and moved on, fully accepting that it wasn’t for me and not beating myself up because I’m too big. Such an incredible feeling you guys!! 💜
Some of you joined me on my shopping trip via my insta-stories last night and I can’t thank you all enough for all your love and your kind, encouraging and supportive messages!! You are the best and my journey wouldn’t be half as exciting and successful without all of you!! 😘😘😘