Weight gain, growth, and true self-love.
No, this has not been easy and I do have many days where I feel insecure, down, and anxious due to body image. I, although, am not letting the negative energy win and overcome me as I am stronger than that and I value myself, and I will prioritise self-love if it is the last thing I do.
Since I started recovery, I have slowly but surely started to gain weight, but more importantly, I have also started to heal my relationship with food, re-discover myself, prioritise my relationships with the people around me and shift my focus from weight loss and exercise to spreading love n light. Yes, I have gained weight (which is bloody amazing as my body is healing itself and slowly growing back into it’s state where-in it can flourish most), but there is so much more to it than just that that I have gained on this journey, and I tend to forget that sometimes, but if I only think of my weight, am I really fully recovered? Looking at my growth from not just a physical point of view, but a mental point of view as well is so, so important to me. Self-love comes from within, not from the exterior, and being mindful of the way I think and how beautiful my soul is overrules any physical changes, no matter how beautiful they also may be. As the incredible India.Arie sings “I am not my hair, I am not my skin, I am the soul that lives within”. 💛🌟🌈